Wednesday, April 30, 2014

I'm in the best relationship!

So lately, I've been thinking.
I'm finally in the best relationship of my life.
I don't feel stressed, taken advantage of, abused or unloved in this relationship.
I can depend on this relationship, I enjoy this relationship.
There is so much love in this relationship that it spills over onto others.
This relationship is with myself.
I have never really (really) been single.
I mean yes, I haven't always had a title with the person I was involved with, but I wasn't single.
Even if they were.
I've never truly been alone, I've always had someone to call, to cuddle with, to hangout, go on dates with.
Its nice, I mean really nice to take time to myself, for myself.
The thing is, I was scared to be alone. I felt I always needed someone.
That's the poison, thinking you need someone.
You never need anyone.
 I let someone control my life for months because I thought I needed them. I let that person tarnish relationships I had with other people because I refused to listen to those trying to help me.
That relationship was toxic, and I couldn't help but continue to take in the poison.
I'm at this point, where I have finally moved on.
Ill never be at the point where I think what happened was ok, but I'm not going to let him ruin my life, while he is out living his.
I never thought I would be at this point, of no more tears from that pain.
But I am at the point where I have tears of joy because I love myself so much that I would never let that happen again.
Being able to let go is true happiness.
The relationship I have with myself has made me into a stronger person.
I don't ever see this relationship ending.
If you cant have a great relationship with yourself, how do you expect to have a successful relationship with someone else.
Being insecure, not loving myself took away any potential relationships I could have had.
When someone brought this to  my eyes, that I had let someone ruin me.
That's when I started focusing on myself again.
For anyone who never seems to truly be alone. Try it.
It will open your eyes, you will learn about your own strengths and great qualities you have to offer.
The only person at the end of the day that's going to be there next to you, no matter what is going to be yourself.
So until you find someone who loves you as much as you do, be in a relationship with yourself.
Even then, continue. Never stop working on yourself, because the relationship you have with yourself should be the most important.

Cleanse your body, mind, and soul.

<3


Monday, April 14, 2014

Stop over-thinking.
Stop it.
Just do it.
You can do it.
Maybe you can't.
I can't.
I'm doing it right now.
Everything I do, is over analyzed.
The thing is we know how harmful over thinking is.
It drags things on....and on...and on...
You replay it in your head while everyone else has moved on.
You know that guy that dumped you and ripped out your heart, hes already screwing over the next chick, while you are crying over some douche bag that didn't notice how great you are because he is a sociopath with no feelings or care for anyone else besides himself.
 Or maybe it was a fling that felt like a genuine friendship,  that they actually cared about you, but they drop you faster than a hot potato.
Or how about that friend that back stabbed you so fast that god himself couldn't even see him coming.
The thing is people suck and you can't sit around continuing to think about people that don't think about you.
Do not let people control your life.
Do not let them bring you down.
Do not  over think it.
People suck and its simple as that. 
If someone wants to walk out of your life, let them. And let them take all their bullshit with them!