Sometimes we fall for the wrong people, however these people seem so perfect at first.

We look past there flaws and only see what we want to see, but why? We are so scared to be alone that we will make some seem so perfect for us when they are everything we don't want.

I always try to look for someone different, but in reality they all are the same, some worse than others.

Stubborn

Self Centered

Narcissistic

Emotionally unavailable

Liars

Cheats

Charismatic

 Manipulative

It seems crazy but taking a 6 month break to really look at the type of people I get myself involved with helps.  

No one I have involved myself with in the past year was worth dating, being involved with or honestly being friends with.

I notice this afterwards of course.

So  now I know what I want, and i will not settle for less

 1. A MAN

I cant even stress this enough, no matter how old they are they seem to still act like little boys with fancy shiny ass toys. Childish, focused on short term things. They see me as a girl, no I do not play those stupid girl games. I am a woman, and I don't have time for back and forth bull crap.

 2. HONEST

I don't think I've been involved with one honest guy this year, they come off as honest. " I have nothing to hide" BULLSHIT. A white little lie is still a lie. Honesty is the most important factor in a relationship and if a relationship starts off with lies it will end on lies.

3. HAS GOALS

Short term. Long term.  Doesn't matter but if your 30 years old and your goal is to buy the new Nikes, probably not the best.

I'm really tired of being the fat friend.
I'm tired of being over looked.
I'm tired of never being good enough.
I'm tired of never being anyones first choice.
I am the fat friend.
The friend you don't set up on dates with your single friends.
I'm not the friend that all your single guy friends go googly eyed over.
 I'm the friend that is just there.
I'm a fun friend, I'm a loyal friend.
But I am the fat friend.
I'm the friend no one really notices if they are gone.
I'm the fat friend that makes everyone else look better
I'm tired of being a shadow, I;m tired of being overlooked.
I am that friend that guys use when they are bored.
The easy targeted friend,the only if I'm extremely wasted friend.
I've always been the fat friend.
I'm really fucking tired of it.